Monday, October 09, 2006

So it's officially Monday.

Fucking yippie. I'm feeling quite melancholy this morning. I'm just fed up with some people right now and I wouldn't mind being left alone about a lot of things. It's all.. the... time... and... I... want... it... to... stooop. Am I being selfish when for once I don't want to hear about problems people have? All I want to do is read my books, go to work, and be happy with it until school starts. Is that reasonable? Anyone? Is it ok to have a few days where a problematic personal life isn't some form of a "highlight?" I mean, with this girl I keep telling myself neither of us are iinterested.... then something happens that changes my mind. So I think my official stance is "go for it." I'm past to safety zone for being single. I've moved on, and it's about time I get myself out in the dating world again. Ugh! fucking people sometimes.

On another note, I was able to drink enough to get a buzz last night. Lately it's been difficult to consume alcohol (and I can never match my old habits).... but I was able to accomplish a small victory last night (it was small by my standards). So my "fun" skills should be coming back. I'm sick of this SHIT! What the fuck!? I just want to get fucked up and do something stupid. I miss old Jeff quite a bit right now. He was a lot better at this... so you know what? I'm going to find him. Old Jeff could do everything I do now, AND be happy! Matter of fact, old Jeff had a lot more going on for him then I do now. Life is too short for me to sit around and e reclusive. Jeff, fix your fucking car, get a fucking beer, and find a fucking party. No more of this insecure shit either. This isn't me. I let my dillusions of what is right and wrong cloud who I am.


posted @ 1:35 AM

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