So I've been getting a ton of hours lately and because I get held over it's not that hard to get a 42+ hour week at Staples.... so for me that's good and bad. The job isn't amusing anymore, it's already lost that fresh feeling and I would love to move on, but I can't. Tonight is my shortest shift in a week and it's 4 p.m. till close... meaning on Saturday (because Sunday starts new sales) I am guessing I'll be out around midnight. That's my guess, I never closed on a Saturday but everyone tells me I will not be out by 10. Usually we close at nine but because it's back to school we are open an hour later... so technically one in the morning might be more realistic.
Besides that, my bank account is increasing nicely, and I look forward to fixing my car. I already have rent ready to go, I just need two more checks and my car is back online (hopefully). I really want it fixed so I can go to Saginaw and visit Rachel and friends for a day or two, and maybe see my Mom... MAYBE! ;)
In our apartment complex we are surrounded by really really bad guitar players. They crank the amp and shit away on my wavelength. Yesterday I plugged in Anna's bass just to prove they suck and need to shut up for a while because they are nothing!
"I'll smack you in the mouth I'm NEIL DIAMOND!"
My white jeans are in the process of being decorated. So far Anna and Kelly took the liberty to write on them with colored sharpies and put everyones favorite phrases on them... bow we need to destroy them and patch them up (Rachel, we may need you for this!). They will rule all when finished.... in a gay homeless man's blanket sort of way.
Oh my God... the guitarist iss trying to play System in normal tuning.... oh come on! Rage Against The Machine is NOT HARD!
Ugh.
posted @ 12:30 PM
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Tuesday, August 22, 2006
'lo!
Last few days been pretty... not busy. I didn't work for a few days and I did very little that I would consider productive. I was mostly hanging out with Cherie and friends.... so I don't have much to update other hten I have a new bank account going with MONEY IN IT! Getting closer!
I work the next three days (well, two and today) from 2-10:30... then I have Friday off, but the day part will be productivity, and the rest of Friday is hanging out. Rumor has it Josh and Joe are coming up, so I may have to bug 'em.
Jamie, Cherie, and Ashley have a new roommate and I hung out with her and Cherie for a while and she is cool... so new friends is always good in my world.
My focus has been mildly delayed due to my little vacation time (and E.R.) but I'm still on track and I am being good, so woohoo for me.
Well, I'm off to finish getting ready for work, lata!
posted @ 12:36 PM
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Saturday, August 19, 2006
I decided yesterday the hospital is too tame for me.
Red Cross here I come!
posted @ 2:20 PM
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Thursday, August 17, 2006
Sometimes I feel it really is as easy as reaching out and taking it.
Goals that is... all you need to do is want it... not need it, but want it. When you need something, you may have an obligated feel, or not even know you need it.
When you want it, you want it. I keep repeating this in my head.
I want to be a doctor. I will be a doctor. I will dedicate my life to others. I will be strong. The world can be mine, as it can be all of ours. I will matter.
That's how everything seems to work with me right now. If I want it, I can have it. My mind isn't even on materials right now. I just want out of my hole, and I will get out.
I also want to watch Project Runway some more. I marathon is on. I will watch Project Runway.
posted @ 6:47 PM
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Friday, August 11, 2006
I think what seperates myself from a few people is my incredible passion I hold for just about anything. I thought about it this morning and I discovered their isn't much I don't have passion for. The idea of it all makes me happy.
posted @ 11:40 AM
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Tuesday, August 08, 2006
Just got back from work.... good day, really good day. I'm starting to enjoy my job because it gives me what I crave... people. I love people... I just want to chit chat all day with them if I can or could. When I'm at work I'm happy... it distracts me from unpleasant thoughts.... so work = good. Money rules too.... but I never think about the money, just the job on hand.
Wanna know something really weird? I dream about when I'm at work.... no lie! It is always on my mind now.... weeeird.
Alex is coming over tomorrow, woot! He has a job interview in Grand Rapids! GO ALEX!
This update brought to you by Jeff, since Anna won't update her FRIGGIN' SITE!
Hehe, that one goes out to Rachel.
posted @ 8:55 PM
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Monday, August 07, 2006
Well I'm home from work.... and that job is getting a bit better. I'm not in some much trainingnow and I'm reated like an employee, not a rookee... so that's good.
I don't feel as depressed when I'm at work, so I may shoot for uber hours... I just feel better at work then when I'm left to my thoughts...
Tomorrow I work from 2-8, then three days off.... I'm going to be super productive so I don't lose my mind.
Anywho, that is all!
posted @ 11:18 PM
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So today (so far) I got up, and Anna took me to MMCC, and then we went to the hospital here in teh Pleasant. I'm going to be shooting for "Patient Communicator" at the hospital. I talk about how the day is going, ask how they are feeling, and just be an informed comforter/counseouler.
Not too shabby, and I can walk away feeling better about how I run my life.
So personal satisfaction + usefulness = happy Jeff.
I can't register for class yet, so that was mildly upsetting.... but hey, can't win them all in a single day, eh? So I hope to get that done as soon as they open up winter registration because I REFUSE to procrastinate. I will be a doctor.
posted @ 12:19 PM
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Sunday, August 06, 2006
All is well in the world of Jeff. I barely think about my past relationship at all! It's crazy! I think I was honestly being held back from my full potential because when I was around her, I was almost always a sloth... now I'm being productive, and actually wanting to really increase my workload again. So that's good...
Anna and Kelly are awesome roommates, we are having a good time here in Mt. P... and on top of that, a girl has been checking me out at work the last two days. I don't know if I want to peruse it because I KNOW I HAVE TO BE SELECTIVE! I mean, I'm not exactly good looking, but let's face it... I'm stable, in school, have aspirations, and I don't know if anyone hates me.... so I'm not too shabby. I have something to offer... I'm not a loser, I'm not handicapped, I have a sense of humor, and I'm not stupid. I'm not a zero! woohoo! It's nice to be aware of that as long as it doesn't get to your head, y'know? But this girl is kinda cute and all, but like I said... I'm not the kind of guy anymore to just jump relationships, and I don't think sex on the first date is going to be my thing. I want something more mature.... I think I am comfortable with that. I don't want someone around for kicks, I want to be sure the next one is someone I can see myself with, trust, and really care for. Not that I didn't care for my last one, but let's face it, she didn't have anything to offer... I'm not going to kid myself.
I want to use this new start like a clean slate of sorts. I don't want to just dive in and go crazy. I want more self control, and more selectivity. Besides, sex is easy, trust is difficult. I guess what I am basically thinking.... is that I don't want to date anyone who is eligible for SSI anytime soon.
No offense to those of you who are on/want it.
Anywho, Jeff is doing good. I worked today and it wasn't so bad, but I work tomorrow too and I have to help close so I'm not really looking forward to that. Maybe later today or tomorrow I am going to integrate myself into the hospital here in the Pleasant. Maybe volunteer to read to burn victims or some sort... I want to do something more meaningful to me as a person. Maybe help the terminally ill as a makeshift counselor (they have that!). I dunno yet, I'm still playing with those ideas... I could also get back into pathology... open up dead people again, hehehehe. While doing all thins, I may cut down my volunteer time for phlebotomy classes through the hospital so later this year or early next year I can draw blood for money.
I'm still not sure if I am happy with Staples. I don't know if it's just for me... the cashier thing is really easy, but they are getting finicky with how long I'll have to do it before being put on the floor. I'll either be at the copy center or in electronics (sales for both).
I don't hate any co-workers yet, so that's a plus... but from what I hear they are all pretty cool guys and gals (including the one with a crush on me) so I'm not too worried about it.
Tomorrow is the day I register for classes! Three cheers to get Jeff back in gear!
Anywho, that's all for now.... but to end my post with this thought.
"I am so glad my dignity is intact."
posted @ 6:56 PM
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Thursday, August 03, 2006
Pam, go away, please.
I don't feel angry, but I think my concern for you is gone as well.
Leave me alone, leave my friends alone.
I can't speak for anyone else, but I for one would not be to upset to never hear from you again. I'm getting back on my feet, and I feel like a persona again. My stress is down, and the last connection to misery (besides my bills) is you, just let me be.
Peace.
posted @ 4:15 PM
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Wednesday, August 02, 2006
Moved into my apartment.
Got a Job (Staples)
Got offered a manager position (Midland Mall).
Accepted into college.
Let's do this Jeff, you and me... let's find a girl.... someone mildly level headed who won't blow and sleep with anyone who wants it.
I rule!
posted @ 10:42 AM
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Grand Master Funk
Name: Jeff Hagerl (21)
Location: Mount Pleasant
Interests: Drinking and Guitar
Status: Drunk
