Sunday, August 06, 2006

All is well in the world of Jeff. I barely think about my past relationship at all! It's crazy! I think I was honestly being held back from my full potential because when I was around her, I was almost always a sloth... now I'm being productive, and actually wanting to really increase my workload again. So that's good...

Anna and Kelly are awesome roommates, we are having a good time here in Mt. P... and on top of that, a girl has been checking me out at work the last two days. I don't know if I want to peruse it because I KNOW I HAVE TO BE SELECTIVE! I mean, I'm not exactly good looking, but let's face it... I'm stable, in school, have aspirations, and I don't know if anyone hates me.... so I'm not too shabby. I have something to offer... I'm not a loser, I'm not handicapped, I have a sense of humor, and I'm not stupid. I'm not a zero! woohoo! It's nice to be aware of that as long as it doesn't get to your head, y'know? But this girl is kinda cute and all, but like I said... I'm not the kind of guy anymore to just jump relationships, and I don't think sex on the first date is going to be my thing. I want something more mature.... I think I am comfortable with that. I don't want someone around for kicks, I want to be sure the next one is someone I can see myself with, trust, and really care for. Not that I didn't care for my last one, but let's face it, she didn't have anything to offer... I'm not going to kid myself.

I want to use this new start like a clean slate of sorts. I don't want to just dive in and go crazy. I want more self control, and more selectivity. Besides, sex is easy, trust is difficult. I guess what I am basically thinking.... is that I don't want to date anyone who is eligible for SSI anytime soon.

No offense to those of you who are on/want it.

Anywho, Jeff is doing good. I worked today and it wasn't so bad, but I work tomorrow too and I have to help close so I'm not really looking forward to that. Maybe later today or tomorrow I am going to integrate myself into the hospital here in the Pleasant. Maybe volunteer to read to burn victims or some sort... I want to do something more meaningful to me as a person. Maybe help the terminally ill as a makeshift counselor (they have that!). I dunno yet, I'm still playing with those ideas... I could also get back into pathology... open up dead people again, hehehehe. While doing all thins, I may cut down my volunteer time for phlebotomy classes through the hospital so later this year or early next year I can draw blood for money.

I'm still not sure if I am happy with Staples. I don't know if it's just for me... the cashier thing is really easy, but they are getting finicky with how long I'll have to do it before being put on the floor. I'll either be at the copy center or in electronics (sales for both).

I don't hate any co-workers yet, so that's a plus... but from what I hear they are all pretty cool guys and gals (including the one with a crush on me) so I'm not too worried about it.

Tomorrow is the day I register for classes! Three cheers to get Jeff back in gear!

Anywho, that's all for now.... but to end my post with this thought.

"I am so glad my dignity is intact."


posted @ 6:56 PM

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