Hmmmm... Dear Bloggety Blog MAchine thing.... PENIS!
I'm still here, no worries my little chitlins. Life is going ok, but I needed to dissapear for a little while. I've been having sporadic moments of clarity on what I want to do with myself. I realised that I been trying to tap into my potential, but in order to do that, I need to stay far away from loner lab work. I decided instead of being a normal doctor, I'm going to work towards postsecondary education. Basically, I'm going to be a college professor, and that's that. I'm going to get a dual in philosophy and some other major. Probably a science of some sort. My focus may be ethics, but I'm really getting closer to what I want to do. I felt like I was real close with pathology, but I just need to have people around me.... I need that stimulation. So perhaps I'll be one of those super-doctors... those professors of med school/doctors who do it all.... or maybe I'll focus on philosophy, and be a master of ethics and asthetics.... The ethics of society, what is right, what is wrong.... or should I go fine arts? A super critical ultrathinker (Philosophy basically turns you into an incredible thinker, if you are not one already). With this decision, I feel a lot better, because the idea of being so alone made me feel cold.... but that's good, becauase that means I can feel.... and if you knew just how bad I was, you would know how much this means to me.
So here I am, not back at the drawing board, but just expanding. I'm really finding a love for education.... I finally understand that I really od like to teach, and to talk about those things I enjoy.... but I always thought TEACHER, as in K-12, but I hated the idea of teaching kids whod on't want to be there. So it clicked.... about time too.... why not college? Work towards tenure, be a full blown professor with the highest degree imaginable.