Friday, December 10, 2004

I can't seem to sleep tonight. So instead of sitting around tired, I made a drink. This drink consists of:

Two packets of hot chocolate
two (200 mg) caffeine pills.
two cups of sugar
8 0z of water

heat water for two minutes..... drink.

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I'm.... awake! HA HA HA HA HA HA! It's like 4 something and I don't care! Anyhoo.... time for the expected.

R.I.P. Dimebags! You were an awesome guitarist! MY condolences go out to Vinnie!
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Well.... yesterday sucked (Thursday that is). I woke up at 6 to get ready on one and a half hours of sleep.... drove to Delta, and went to my English class. Surprise! We got out after only being in class for 30 minutes! This rocks! I could have skipped because we did nothing! Go sleep (I was awfully tired). Well, I wait in the library for my next class, and when I go to it.... no instructor in sight. I woman walks in, passes an attendance sheet around, gives us an outline, and told us we have no instructor for the rest of the semester. He is sick, so we can leave now. That class time totaled 10-12 minutes. This really got to me. I could have slept in till 12! Well, I go BACK to the library knowing my next class is not until 2. I see Josh on, so I bug him... and we go to mall. We are their till 12:45 or so, and I return to Delta. I walk to my class to get a good hour and 45 minutes of free guitar time to find out it just got cancelled. He had a conference to attend. Ok.... FUCK YOU! ALL OF YOU! It was funny (sarcasm) because Josh joked about my next class being cancelled.... you asshole, you cursed me! So, I woke up at 6.... on almost no sleep.... drove to Delta.... sat in the library, went to the mall.... and came home. I needed that gas money for EDUCATION! Bah! I crave information.... I get no information when I have no instructors. Well, I should be glad.... but screw it. I wanted something for the drive!

I got home, slept. I slept from 2:40-6 (or something). I was disturbed from my sleep by Josh on the phone. I was going to be ripped from my bed and to join him and Joe at the Red Eye. No money, but I didn't care. So for the rest of the day I hung out with them.... not a bad ending to a shit morning.

That's my day.

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My next topic...

I need a woman. The vegetarian is cool and all, but we are really different. That sends me back to the drawing board. I recently decided that I'm being a real dumbass with relationships.... after some serious thought, I decided to start looking for someone to be in a serious relationship with. This is where you folks come into play. Do you know anyone that would be interested on going on a shindig with me? Keep in mind I won't be a cruel, heartless bastard. I would actually open up my old box (closed since Melanie), and see what emotions I can find. It could be someone I know, don't know..... but hey, if I stay shut all the time, I won't get anywhere. So if you ever want to do me a favor, this would take the cake. I'm just tired of being a bastard all the time. In order for me to shape up, I need a real good reason..... it's just how I work. If nobody cares what I do, then I may just run around yelling obscenities until I grow tired and pass out. If I have a goal that requires me to keep myself in check, I will be just fine. I will still try to make people laugh.... I love doing it.... but come on, I need to stop being such an asshole. I'm an eccentric musician looking for someone to be with. Sounds almost cliche' ... anyhoo, back on topic. If you know anyone, but in a good word.... and maybe a blind/double date type thing.... I'm not really picky, but I can be shy at times (if I don't know the person). So.... yup, that's it for this topic, just something to keep in mind if you would be so kind.
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Folks, I have set a goal recently. I will one day be considered a top of the line musician. Not just a drummer, not just a guitar player.... but a musician. I am currently composing orchestrated music for Alexei's long term project, and I practice quite a bit. I still keep my drumming skills well toned, and I am learning guitar like crazy. I'm way ahead of class..... and according to Brad (teacher), that is something to really be proud of. I can pull off guitar solos.... I can write them, and I can play some music by hear. I can't do it all by ear, but I figured out a couple AC/DC riffs and such, but playing cover songs by ear is not my main musical focus. I want to be uber, I want to be able to express my feelings about music in a unique and powerful manner. Ever since high school band have I moved to the beat. Not just moved, but I was the 'tard who was running around and headbanging to marching music. I don't care what it is, as long as I have fun playing it.... yeah. Music is very important to me..... it's my escape. I express myself with it, I study it, I play it.... and I don't do it for desire of money, but because I love it. I do it for the music itself, and to me that is the most important thing about being a true musician. A person can never be so abnormally powerful unless they have a genuine love for what they do. I like to play guitar based on how I see things. Sometimes it feels like my divine soul is running through the instrument.... no matter how good or bad I am.... I play it like I feel it. If I feel like my soul is being ripped from me, then I may just force the strings down on an off beat.... and just rip slide it to the next note. If I am drumming in a song, I can almost always feel that next fill coming up. I place every note so it counts, but never cluttered. That is how I am... I take it very seriously, and when I am playing.... I am in my little bliss state of mind.


Well, I think I gave you all enough reading material for now. Comment if ye like, and don't forget my relationship topic!


posted @ 4:40 AM

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